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[liamar]

ok thank GOD! 

im finally done with the killer week from HELL! 

jeez! 4 assignments and a test in one week! i mean physiology, pharmacology, psychology AND biology all have to be due in at the same time? all in ONE week? in THIRD year! do the lecturers think its funny to fuck with us? see if we crack under the pressure?WHY? is it funny to watch us stumbling around with just four hours of sleep?writing four thousand word research proposals at 3 am?WTF?.............................................

ok i've calmed down now. hey at least its over. now ive just got exams to go(2weeks- study day and night). .... and UMAT (2months- study during holidays) .......and MCATS (3months- huh also study for during holidays) ........and work(all the bloody time)

OH GOD! IM DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMED!

can somebody cheer me up please? preferably with some porn? maybe hot J2 porn? or does anyone want to kill my plotbunny for me since i dont have any time to write it? please? i thought this up on the bus on my way to my test ( brain WTF? get with the program).

its something along the lines of 'what would happen if jensen and jeff were having really really i mean really hot buttsex and suddenly jensen unintentionally lets slip the D word (you know i have a daddy kink when it comes to JDM, so sue me?)'

does anyone want to write it? or has it already been written, or you can sen me any other pron you thinks good. heh! id even settle for comment porn! please? please?

ok *goes to look for dignity* ill stop begging now.

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[liamar13.livejournal.com]

yes it was totally just a plea for porn.how did you see right through my ploy? HEH!

hey you're not useless to me! you totally cheered me up. plus hello just coz i cross boundaries with barely a backwards glance doesnt mean that you should not stick to your principles. to each their own i say.

but the JA/JDM just gets me, i dunno maybe because i was a jensen girl way before i even thought of jared as remotely cute. i mean when i first saw him on GG he totally looked like jailbait, not into that. so yeah JENSEN - see icon. and JDM coz of the voice ....GUH! (is this conversation starting to sound familiar to you? deja-vu like we have talked about THE VOICE before)

anyway about the university rant. i totally dont mean to sound like i dont enjoy what im studying because in all honestly i love my courses to peices, i mean i might be the only one that does but i love doing biomed and i am totally excited about all the things we study, i even enjoy the physiology which anyone will tell you is just loony. its just that last week kicked my ass and i was so tired. i thnk it was the first time i actually realized all the stuff im trying to do this year - all leading up to applying for med school- instead of being all go go go so i kinda went off the deep end. sorry you had to listen to the ranting. do you feel like ranting back at me in retaliation? i will totally listen. i'm a good listener, i AM i tell you.... (why wont anyone believe me? *cries*) LOL!

so yeah how you doing?

[cyndrarae.livejournal.com]

How am I doing? Hmm.. usual I guess :) Work.. home.. husband and dog.. avoiding the family.. struggling to write.. yeah, what's not to like eh? ;-)

See I always say student life is the very best time of your life, and now it's gone and I miss it a lot :) Miss the fact that every single day was a brand new adventure - new things to learn, new friends to make, new illegal substances to try haha. Nah I'm kidding ;) But you know once school's out and you get into the normal boring routine of life, it's the same thing over and over again so.. yeah, fun in it's own way :) but not THAT much fun :D Alright, rant over! :D

I'm happy that you enjoy every aspect of school hon.. both the work and the play right? :) If you're really this passionate abt your subjects, I say you'll make a bloody good doctor some day, all the best! :)

Heart the icon! *drools* And yeah I remember you rambling something away abt the VOICE ;-P JDM is totally the big daddy on the show I know.. and sometimes I think maybe I'm being hypocritical.. what with accepting wincest but not daddy!cest. But hey fact is.. it just doesnt work for me :) nothing more to say right? :) What do you think?

[liamar13.livejournal.com]

hey your life sounds pretty awesome too even if you are avoiding people and struggling to write. i mean if it makes you happy then any life can be awesome.

i on the other hand am constantly being attacked by plot bunnies i dont have time to appease. maybe i will have to take some time out and write, just to stop them bugging me.

yeah student life is pretty awesome, i must admit especially when most people you know are as crazy as you are. heh! sorry to dissapoint but i am not invovlved with any illegal substances, just copious amounts of alchohol. im really a good girl, the only things i do are study, go to the gym, go to work work and read porn on the net..... oops maybe not so good after all. LOL!

awwwww! shucks, thanks. *embarrassed*

but hey not hypocritical. daddy!cest squicks me too *shudders* i reckon no matter how you try to put it that sort of thing will always have an imagined element of like non-con which is horrible in any 'verse, real or not. what is funny i guess is that i have a daddy!kink when its all pretend (JDM/jared or JDM/jensen) but if it was daddy!cest (john/dean or john/sam) i get creeped out. do you understand what im saying, i dont know how to really express it.

the wincest thing is hard to explain, maybe because they are close to the same age, they talk back to each other, they fight, there's an element of them being onthe same level emotionally .. plus they are hot together. i dunno...i've given up trying to understand my brain. atleast i know i have some boundaries remaining,thats a good thing right?

[cyndrarae.livejournal.com]

maybe i will have to take some time out and write, just to stop them bugging me.
Yayy you should! :)

i am not invovlved with any illegal substances, just copious amounts of alchohol.
You know I was kidding about the illegal substances right? ;) Alcohol oooh me too. Major red wine freak and whaddya know - it's supposed to be good for the heart right? :D Or so I tell myself hehe.

what is funny i guess is that i have a daddy!kink when its all pretend (JDM/jared or JDM/jensen) but if it was daddy!cest (john/dean or john/sam) i get creeped out. do you understand what im saying, i dont know how to really express it.

You expressed yourself perfectly well hon. And I get it, I do. John and Sam are father and son but JDM and Jared are not, similarly Dean and Sam are brothers but Jared & Jensen are not. Probably that's why RPS is so huge in SPN. I mean except LOTR, I dont know of any fandom where RPS is almost as big as the canon genre itself. Maybe the guys are just so hot they're practically begging to be slashed. And us fans find a way to rationalize it.. if we can't digest the wincest or the daddy!cest, we turn to RPS. And I guess that's fine... except... I personally don't endorse RPS either! :) That's not to say I havent read any.. in fact I even like some of the light, fluffy ones. But I have trouble with the ones where a real person is harmed in any way. Aaand.. havent we had this conversation before? :D Dayum!! :D

atleast i know i have some boundaries remaining,thats a good thing right?

It is :) There are some lines I think your principles will never allow you to cross, you probably won't even be tempted. It is abusive RPF/RPS in my case.