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[liamar]

aaah!!! i hate it when my brain won't listen to me. i want it to do J2 twister things, instead it wants to do slacker on holiday things. why, i ask you, WHY?! seriously, this (below) is the best i could come up with the past couple of days. neve, ever going to make my deadline!!! still here's a sniippet of wait for you chapter 2. unbeta-ed but not because i dont have one, i just dont want to bug her yet. so yeah........

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It wasn’t much later they pulled up to the truck stop Eric knew about. Today was going to be a long day and they would definitely need some refreshments so Jensen went in to order them some food to take on the way and coffees. Out the window he could see Kim taking Jared through the procedure for Dorothy, it may have been his design but they had changed things to make it work.

 

He was about to turn back to the counter when he saw it. In all the excitement he hadn’t had a good look at Jared’s truck; when it was coming towards him he was mostly just looking at Jared and after that it hadn’t really mattered. But now he looked, and he saw.

 

 Jared truck was brand spanking new, but like Jared’s clothes Jensen missed the old version. Jensen remembered Jared’s old truck very well. It was a piece of shit but it had been Jared’s first car and he really wouldn’t hear a word against it.

 

He’d been driving that old beat down pick up the first time Jensen saw him, drunk as hell driving straight for a class 3.  Jensen and his team had been filming the tornado when it happened. Jensen had watched with a mixture of awe and incredulity as the gorgeous but obviously crazy man had pulled up as close as possible to the storm and tossed a bottle of Jack straight into the funnel.

 

And He’d been driving that same truck three days later when Jensen finally agreed to go out with him. Jared had amused him, and infuriated him but most of all fascinated him. And what Jensen remembered most about that day was the way Jared’s skin looked in the moonlight as they’d made love in the back of that old damn truck. Jensen remembered it, awkward and clumsy but oh so beautiful, remembered the love and the passion and staring at this new version of a familiar story, he could feel something inside him finally break. God Jared. New job, new truck, new wife. Its like a whole new you. I guess the same old me no longer compares.

 

Footsteps coming up behind him dissipated Jensen s thoughts like so much smoke.  he urned and Sandy was there, and he really didn’t need this right now. He hurt too much right now for polite conversation. But it seemed that if nothing else, Sandy was determined.

 

“I know” Jensen distinctly crushed the urge to pat her on the head and go well good for you then.  when he heard the next words out of her mouth he wished he had. If she had socked him at least he wouldn’t have to listen to her gloat. Because even though she nursed it in quiet words to Jensen that what it was, gloating.

 

“I know you still love him; I can see it every time you look at him, every time you speak to him. I know what it’s like to love him. I have since the beginning, so I don’t blame you. I just hope this all isn’t just a way to get him back, because it wont work” Sandy tried to put as much conviction into her voice as possible, because she believed what she was saying, truly she did. Even if you’ve seen Jared look back at him the same way, her mind questioned, but she couldn’t focus on that.

 

“For the longest time I was so afraid of you. So afraid, because there was no way I could compete. What you and Jared had was so different form anything I could give him. I didn’t think I would be enough. But he wants to marry me Jensen, he’s happy with me. So whatever today is let it be, but please let him go. For both our sakes.”

 

Sandy could see the effect her words had on the man -- and wasn’t that the kicker-- the man, in front of her, and in that moment she truly hated herself. She had let insecurities and hurt take her away from the person she was and this man had suffered for it. Unable to bear that shattered look on his face any longer, she quickly turned away and went in search of Jared.

 

She found him standing outside, contemplating the sky and hugged him from the back, hoping his warmth would heat the cold place inside of her. He put his arms over her hands and just let her hold him, lost in his own thoughts. They stayed that way, peaceful and calm, for a long moment. But soon Eric came to call them; all the changes had been made, Dorothy II was now strapped to the bed of Jared’s truck and all the vehicles were fuelled; they were ready to go.

 

As if sensing her anxieties Jared kissed her wrist before he unhooked her arms around him. “Don’t worry, it’s only one day. I just have to see this through and then we can get back to planning you perfect wedding.”

 

“Our wedding.” Sandy whispered but Jared was already gone.

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so what do you think? any good or do i have to go back to the drawing board?! hopefully just putting this out there will shock my muse into actually working. hehe

Comments

[sauvageonne.livejournal.com]

Ohhh snippet only ... * pouts and puppy eyes * Where's the rest ??? And bad Sandy - Don't like her, she hurt my Jensen ...* pulls claws out* Hum, really need to stop coffee !!!

[liamar13.livejournal.com]

hey whose lie you bin listening to !! there is no need to stop coffee, its like awesome in its awesomeness (this sentence is an example of daliah without caffeine- the story you are wishing to read is written when daliah is on caffeine- anyone see the difference). lolz. apologise for the snippetness of this update. unfortunately my muse is being a little bitch and only giving me bits and pieces for each chapter. and yes sandy is kinda mean isnt she but jared will make jensen feel better- you know he will. heh.

[splendidsilence.livejournal.com]

This is really good, but I'm going crazy waiting for the rest of it! And I'm really hating on Sandy right about now.....poor Jensen!

[culturegeek76.livejournal.com]

Oooh, very nice. I'm hoping that you do update soon (if you haven't already) because I'm addicted to this story now.....

[cherry87a.livejournal.com]

continue please *puppy eyes*

[bonbonschnecke.livejournal.com]

Are you going to update to this story?

[liamar13.livejournal.com]

hey, i am really fond of this story and really do want to finish it but it has been a year since i wrote this snippet and i think i need to face facts that i am probably not going to finish it. i feel bad to say that because i hate to leave it unfinished but RL got badly in the way :(

um, thank you for your enquiry, tho :)